Equality - NOT COMPLETE - will finish later

Lately I have been thinking a lot about equality, specifically gay rights and how much and how passionate I am about this movement. Which to me is quite funny because just years ago I never even thought twice about these type of things. I never thought much about what was going on outside of my own petty, little, everyday world. Although I was never had any negative thoughts or opinions about people who were gay...I just didn't really think about it.

Coming from the small, conservative, city of Midland, Texas where there is a church on ALMOST every corner...moving to Los Angeles, California in 2008 was a culture shock. It was a scary, unfamiliar yet fabulous, colorful, diverse world where there is something for everyone.

My mother is Catholic but doesn't necessarily practice the religion and I'm pretty sure my dad has practiced every religion from Buddhism to Judaism at least twice...I've even seen photos of my father outside of Jewish Temples in Israel wearing a yarmulke; but growing up he was mainly Lutheran and I went to church and church groups every Sunday and Wednesdays until I was in high school. So I did have the general, unaltered, and unconfused belief that there was in fact, Jesus. I was "Christian".

Upon moving to L.A. this belief was quickly questioned and people loved to interrogate me and give me "insight". At first I found it very irritating! I would think "Why don't they just let me be who I am?" After a while I had become so confused and unsure of where I stood with religion anymore. It became an internal battle that was actually deeply upsetting to me because no matter how hard I wanted to believe what I always had..I couldn't. Not with full honesty and not without doubt...So essentially I was lying to myself and others to keep pursuing this religion that I couldn't honestly say I believed..and I hated that. So I made it official. I made it know that I was Agnostic.

Opening...

Ello' there,

Am I so cocky that I find myself worthy or interesting enough for people to actually want to read my thoughts..some opinions and some mindless blabbing? The answer is no, but quite frankly I don't give a s***.

The purpose of this blog purely out of sheer boredom. Originally I created it almost a year ago and only posted once...I came back to it just moments ago and bored myself to no end. So to save anybody who might actually take the time to read this from wanting to gauge their own eyes out..I deleted it. You can thank me later..or now..whatever. :)

If you can't stand bad grammar...you probably shouldn't be here.

Otherwise, this blog is really only for myself..to vent and blab about things I wouldn't want to pain my friends with having to listen to me on the other end of a telephone line for two hours..that and I don't particularly enjoy being on the phone. This way...they can CHOOSE if they want to listen my nonsense instead of feeling morally obligated.

A little BRITTANY 101...I'm ADHD. Like, literally clinically diagnosed..it works for and against me..really I feel like it helps the creative side of me..but the studious/logical side of me..not so much. Shameless. I really am... shamelessly silly. Alot of people have described me as having a gypsie soul due to my having a very very difficult time staying in one city to long...

Shoot...I'm already boring you already. Maybe I should come back when I have something a little more interesting to say...

B